Thursday, April 17, 2008
My Day at the Doctor's
I reported to the HOPE van today. I was seen by a doctor who said I amn overdue to get a lot of work done so they showed me how top get my medical assistance funding work filled out, had me talk to a social worker, and assured me that nothing easily diagnosed was wrong with me....
Sigh. so much for: "take two aspirin and call me in the morning."
As a medically indigent member of Shasta County, I am being sent through the social services system so I can get my referral approved to see a neurologist who will review my latest CT scans of my brain, check out my medicine levels, review my life medical history, and determine then, maybe then a diagnosis of what is wrong with my legs...
In the past year I have gotten tired of dsragging my foot, tired of randomly losing my balance, and surveying scabs from falling on my knees and elbows. Those carpets can be a challenge sometimes. Sad, I find hope in thinking I may get an answer to my questions, but what are the answers I am going to get?
I believe that whenever one door opens, another one closes. For that I can be grateful.
I was given a prayer at a retreat house in San Juan Bautista:
God, thank you for everything you gave to me.
Thank you for everything you took from me.
Thank you for everything you left me.
I suppose being frustrated over my physical problems is just another thing to move past and learn from...